My Sins Block my Dua'a

As I sit here alone, the tears rolling down my
face

It is not salt, but pain that I taste

So I leave now to go stand before You

I am helpless and alone, what else can I do?

I have asked, I have begged but my sins block my
du'a

I will come now still begging, forgive me

O AllahForgive me and grant me what it is that I
ask

For me it is impossible but for You a simple
task

I try and I try but I do not succeed

But I understand and know it is because Your Words I do
not heedI hear, yes I hear but I do not always obey

Perhaps that is why I am destitute, isolated and why You
have written that I will be alone this way

I have no to blame but the person in the mirror

I see No one else must pay for my sins, no one else, no one
else, no one else but me

So I stand before You to again beg forgiveness
because

You said that I can

You have told us in Your Book
that You are Ar-Rahman

I will ask, I will beg but my sins my block my
du'a

But I will keep asking, forgive me O Allah

اللهم أغفر لي وللمسلمين
والمسلمات والمؤمنين
والمؤمنات الأحياء منهم والأموات إلى يوم
الدين

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